Assalamualaikum,
Malaysian don't usually suffer from depression. why? people asks. It is because we Malaysian don't usually give a fuck about this trivial matter.
Just like what happen to me. I've been through a lot lately. I do feel sad sometimes. But I have this defense mechanism which often told me to fight this somber feeling. I've made a lot of the wrong choice in my life. I let a lot of people down. I am not competence with my work and the list goes on. My mind kept on telling me that I should feel bad about myself.
But, at the end of the day. Things did work out just fine. How broke you feel, how bad you screw up, things become better the next day. Why? Because I have Allah. When I feel sad. I kept this feeling to myself, I don't even bother to tell my husband about the matter. So sometimes I end up overthinking, and this depression came approaching me. Often I keep this feeling ferment for several hours, when I feel like I am going to burst, I held up my hand and send my prayer to my creator. I told Allah what happen even though I know He already knew what happen. I cried if I want to, and I pray to him.
When I felt all my hope was gone. There came His help, in numerous ways. There's this one time that I am totally broke, suddenly my dad decides to bring food to my house. I am really thankful for that. Even though this for somebody just a small matter, but I believe Allah had answered my prayer. I have enough money to survive for that month.
So no matter what happen, how bad your life it, just remember Allah is still listening to you even though everybody had abandon you.
Wasalam
